I WANT I WANT I WANT

Make a list based on your age of things to do before your next birthday...for example, "22 things before I turn 22". Start doing them!

Considering I turn 20 in three days, it would be super difficult to accomplish the twenty goals that I would like. Because of this, I will make a list of twenty-one goals that I would at least attempt to start by the time I am twenty-one years old.

1. Start writing new poems that I can use for my own book in the future
2. Start writing music through the piano and guitar
3. Live out in a place of my own; even if it is just a cute tiny efficiency
4. At least be on one magazine cover, or in one magazine!
5. Star in a big picture film
6. Perform in a musical
7. Get to know my immediate family more
8. Learn how to SAVE my money and not spend it on everything
9. Work enough to be able to afford a decent car! (I am sick of the wagon haha)
10. Start writing my first novel
11. Meet Gerard Butler *drools*
12. Learn how to swim under water without holding my nose LOL
13. Learn how to cook a decent dish
14. Learn how to sew so I can start bringing my designs to life
15. Go to NYC and see the broadway production of Phantom of the Opera and Chicago
16. See comedians Dane Cook and Jeff Dunham on tour
17. Watch Pitbull perform live
18. Meet Brian and Amanda from the Dresden Dolls again
19. Update my wardrobe
20. Get an IMac with a 36" screen
21. Invest in a camera and work on fashion photography

Yes, I have many hopes and dreams.
Yes, I believe I can fulfill them all.
But, probably not in a year!

:P

Self Portrait

So, if you have been to my facebook you have seen that I have TONS of pictures and portraits of myself. Trying to find a picture that truley is creative enough to portray who I am is not the easiest! :)



Even though this picture isn't necessarily anything special, I took it this weekend and the feeling I was experiencing out by the water is still fresh in my memory. The weather this weekend was absolutely incredible. It is amazing how the weather can change your mood or the way that you feel. During this day, during the very moment the picture was taken, I was just feeling the breeze over the water rushing over my body. The sun beating down on my face and onto the water.
If there is one thing I could suggest to anyone in this world, it is to just enjoy the little things. It is those small things that you get for free that give you the true happiness in life. The feeling you can get when you are just soaking in the nature around you is surreal, and I honestly wish I could show each and every person how to acknowledge it.

Mark Me Up

Write about tattoos, body modifications or what "physical appearance" means to you

I do not have any tattoos, but I do have a belly button ring. Honestly, I do plan on getting a tattoo sometime soon, I just feel like there is something special about them (as long as you dont receive a disease with it). I have decided on getting a small scorpio symbol, and I have a few possible spots I would like it. It would either be on the inside of my wrist, the back of my neck, or on my lower hip where not many people could see it. I dont really want it to show off or look hardcore, I am just proud to be a scorpio; a November baby. I dont judge people with tons of tattoos or numerous piercings. Who am I to say there is something wrong with them? Actually, who is society to tell us it is not normal? I admire people who get creative with their body because I feel they are confortable enough to go against the everyday social norms we have had created for ourselves.

Spilling it

Write about a time something spilled...sounds like a silly prompt: right until you try it.

When I think of something spilling I think about emotion. Sometimes I get myself into situations where my feelings are overflowing all the way onto the floor and into the hallway. Sometimes they are good, but it seems for most human beings it is the pain that spills out the most. Like most girls, I occassionally get super sensitive when I drink copeous amounts of alcohol (haha!). Last night was one of those nights. All the tears I cried could have been deep enough to swim in, that is what I was doing: swimming inside my mind. And some people may look at this as something sorrowful, but once I spilled out my whole life, I have never felt better.

Poverty

In this season where gratitude is of focus, reflect on a time you encountered homelessness or a homeless person. Is this an issue of concern for you? Why or why not?

When I went to Mexico I encountered my first homeless experience. I mean, I obviously knew about homeless people and saw them on TV. It truly is sad. Whether the person has a mental disability, or they are so sick and tired of life that they just want to spend all their money on alcohol. I do not like seeing people in pain, and I am one of those people who would try to help someone no matter what. Unfortunately you can only help those who are ready to change. I was about 11 or 12 when I went to Mexico on vacation, and I happened to take a bus with my family. Well, we arrived in the city of Monteray (not sure how it really is spelled) and had to take a taxi to the place we were staying. On our way from the station to the taxis there were so many homeless people. There was one woman in particular who looked so sad and helpless and I begged my mom to give her some money. My mom told me to never give out money to a homeless person with others around because than all the others will fallow you and beg.

Another time I ran into a homeless person was in Baltimore. I was with my family at the inner harbor and a man was sitting on the sidewalk. We gave him a decent amount of money to try and help him out, and we later saw that he spent it on alcohol. Of course we were upset, but in a way I was more disappoined than anything. I just think it is so sad to be stuck in a situation like that. Even if the person wants to live that way, I feel people who make a living off of begging for money and choose to live on the street are ill and just happened to travel down the wrong path.
I think America needs more facilities to help these people. Not just to feed them, clothe them, and bathe them, but a rehabilitation center that provides them counseling and classes to teach them how to use their full potential.